Saturday, June 4, 2011
Staring the differences in the face
I love when Michael gets to be around kids his age but at the same time I hate it. I hate it for me. I hate the way it makes me feel when I see his peers doing all the normal stuff they are supposed to. I hate feeling jealous that their kid can do what mine cannot. We were around a little boy only 10 days younger than Michael today and he was able to play with kids, interact, ask questions, ALL the normal stuff you'd expect a 3 year old to do. It hurts my heart to turn around and see my child and know they are having these struggles. It makes me angry that I have to have these feelings of frustration and jealousy. How it would be to have a normal conversation with my son without him refusing or yelling NO WAY or growling/grunting at me. I want to just have a conversation!! I want to be able to play with my son, not next to him.
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ReplyDeleteI can only imagine what that must be like. But you need to know, in case no one else has told you...Michael is SO lucky that YOU are his mama.
I SO AGREE WITH ASHLEIGH!!
ReplyDeleteLindsay I want to hug you right now!! I love you so dang much your post made me cry. I wish so freaking bad I lived by you now more then ever!! I want to help in anyway!! Micheal is amazing...just remember that you literally have a genious boy on your hands. Try to think of all the amazing things he is already doing that most 3 yr olds aren't even CLOSE to knowing or doing. With therapy you will have a conversation with him I promise you!! I love you sis!!
Lindsay- I am your sister windy's neighbor and my son Boston is on the autism spectrum. Oh how I can relate to these feelings. I would love to talk to you. We have so much in common. I even have scoliosis like I was told have! Please call me if u want to chat. Other moms have been my greatest strength through all of this. 801 599 6993 carly youngr
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